Posted by: Brendan Fraser4 MAY 2013
Well, the time is drawing ever nearer to that dreaded pre-reg exam. I must hold my hands up and admit, that revision has not been going brilliantly. Thankfully however, I have booked a week off work to relax before my planned intense schedule. This includes tackling the pre-registration syllabus head on by obtaining and placing the relevant information in my dedicated folder. Now that's what I call organised! I have already assembled some of this folder. So, I suppose I am partially prepared for the exam (see how I'm trying to convince myself here). I should be open/honest and admit, that I am slightly jealous of those sandwich students at university for their final half of the fourth year degree. It would had been nice to revise for this exam whilst still in a university setting, rather than a work one. I suppose, however, that both the sandwich and the standard pharmacy degree have pros and cons. Anyway, this week, I've started to begin to feel like 'a real pharmacist'. Why? Well... Recently myself and the follow pre-reg's have been given more ward responsibility. This means that we have been dealing with patients individually, rather than shadowing or working directly with our supervisors. Of course, we have our work checked, but sorting out the initial problems is our responsibility. I have enjoyed this responsibility but, I have also found it extremely difficult. Occasionally, it has lead to some acute spells of anxiety. Despite the reasoning behind this anxiety being irrational, it still irregularly arises. This has knocked my confidence quite significantly. It can be quite easy to contemplate clinical care plans academically, but when you have to put it in practice, it's a different ball game. Of course, maybe that's just me, or maybe it isn't? Who knows? I feel that I could definitely adapt to this sort of environment, but it is annoying when there is no consistency. Despite this pessimistic talk, this week I think I've been brilliantly patient-centred. I'm not blowing my own trumpet, but on a couple of occasions I have made an additional effort with individual patients. In return they expressed their gratitude generously, to my surprise. It's funny, I actual felt like I made an impact to their care. I remember smiling as I walked off the ward, this was the reason I chose pharmacy.Sadly (and there always is a sad note), my supervisors were not best pleased with the amount of time I had been spending with these patients, despite being impressed with the work I had done. "As a pharmacist, you won't have time to talk to patients for so long". I know they are right. But as a pre-reg, I can't help but spend as much time with patients, when as of just now, I have no other commitments. I suppose this is what the pre-reg year is for. To understand that in the real world, a real pharmacist, just does not have the time... Quite the epiphany this late on, don't you think?